fynovel Chapter 14 Even If It Kills, I Will Still Study
Chapter 14 Even If It Kills, I Will Still Study
Gu Chen felt his heart tighten, and a tremendous pain spread from it, instantly reaching every part of his body.
He felt dizzy and disoriented. The moment he saw the answer, it was as if a heavy hammer had shattered the mirror called "inner self".
"No...why would this happen?"
Gu Chen couldn't understand the answers to the exam paper in front of him. Under the influence of the pain all over his body, he frantically tore at the exam paper on the desk, as if as long as he tore it to pieces, such a truth would no longer exist in reality.
Of course, that's impossible.
After Gu Chen tore the test paper to shreds, he immediately ran under the teacher's desk and pulled up a few more test papers.
The answer was exactly the same!
After tearing up a few more test papers, he finally accepted the fact that the whole class had the same answer and clutched his head.
"What have my students become?"
Gu Chen looked up at the students in the classroom. He didn't know when... they had all become the same.
Her hairline was receding, she wore thick glasses, and had dark circles under her eyes that were as black as ink.
His back was bent low, like a shrimp, his eyes fixed on the exam paper in front of him, his pen writing frantically, writing, writing...
Even the students whose papers had been taken away by Gu Chen did not stop writing. Those who had pens gripped them and scribbled on the table, making a grating, creaking sound.
Some students, who had neither exam papers nor pens, maintained a strange posture, as if they were holding an invisible pen, diligently writing and drawing...
Gu Chen could tell that what they wrote was exactly the same, because the way they held the pen, the position of each stroke... were all the same!
It's like a robotic arm in a factory, diligently operating according to a predetermined program.
"...No, that won't happen."
As Gu Chen looked at everything before him, a chaotic vortex swirled in his mind. Sometimes he would look down at his desk with a pained expression, and sometimes he would look up at the students in the classroom, who were writing their problems in an orderly fashion... His face was filled with boundless pain.
"These aren't my students. The students I teach aren't like this, and my teaching methods... aren't like this either."
"..."
Gu Chen's mind was in complete chaos, and the rustling sound of writing made him feel incredibly irritated.
These scenes, these students, these children...
How could it have turned out like this!
As a teacher myself, what I fear most is seeing children become so mechanical!
Doubt, pain, despair...
Those chaotic thoughts swirled, negative emotions surged, threatening to engulf, shatter, and destroy Gu Chen's consciousness...
If a person's soul is destroyed, then when he wakes up again, he is basically no longer a human being.
Collapse, madness, mania, and even direct brain death.
but!
"My upbringing wasn't like that..."
"I understand. What happened to you?"
"The teacher will help you."
But Gu Chen didn't.
He muttered to himself, and when he looked up again, a resolute glint flashed in his eyes.
Suddenly, a flash of inspiration struck me, and a sense of clarity washed over me.
For a teacher, the fact that their students are achieving good results under their guidance is, in a sense, an affirmation of the teacher's abilities, and some teachers feel joy upon learning this.
As a teacher, all I need to do is improve the students' grades.
But Gu Chen is not like that.
He always believed that students should not be judged solely on their grades.
Whether you're happy or not, whether you're eating well, whether you're being bullied...
These are all things that I, as a teacher, need to do.
And now, these students he personally mentored are in this state!
The students must have run into trouble!
Gu Chen took a deep breath, gently rubbed his eyes, and blinked.
He placed his hands on the wooden desk in front of him, glanced around, and slowly began to speak.
"Students, if you encounter any problems, you should tell your teacher. I know you must have encountered some kind of problem to be like this."
"If you have any difficulties, ask your teacher for help."
Based on his memory, Gu Chen walked to the podium again and went to the neatly arranged desks.
The first student, the first seat from left to right in the first row of the first column.
"You have a stomach problem. How were you last night? Did you take your medicine properly?"
The second student, the second seat from the left in the first row of the first column.
"I remember you like the cumin-flavored sandwiches on the first floor of the cafeteria. You know the teachers don't keep students late, so you'll definitely get to eat some later."
The third one, the third seat.
"You've written love letters to Xiaomei from the next class three times. Teachers don't do the job of breaking up couples, but, well... I still hope you two study hard, otherwise our class will have another pair of star-crossed lovers."
The fourth one...
"You and your partner, well, it is indeed not in accordance with social norms. I hope you two can maintain good boundaries. If you go too far, I will intervene."
"I don't want you two to end up saying things like, 'Do you have anything to say?' or 'Nothing to say.'"
Fifth place...
"Do you have enough money for living expenses this week? If not, go to the cafeteria on the far left of the first floor and tell the auntie that I sent you. It won't cost you anything."
Sixth, seventh, eighth...
Gu Chen started from the very front door of the classroom and moved to the very back, arriving at the classic spot where the homeroom teacher would peek out from the back door.
From the first student in the first row of the first column to the last student today.
"Stop hanging out with those shady characters outside of school, be decisive, and focus on your studies."
"If they harass you, go to your teacher; the teacher will stand up for you."
After finishing his conversation with the last student, Gu Chen was about to turn around and return to the podium.
Despite Gu Chen asking each student individually, not a single one responded.
But he wasn't worried; there might just be a problem, but the students didn't want to or dared to talk about it.
As a teacher, I should just wait a little longer.
But just as Gu Chen turned to walk towards the podium...
A sudden change has occurred!
A dirty little hand tugged at Gu Chen's clothes!
"Hmm? Nothing happened, right...?"
"!"
Gu Chen subconsciously turned his head to look, only to find that he had absolutely no recollection of that face!
It was a foreign face, blond hair and blue eyes, but its brilliance was obscured by mud...
He was small and thin, with limbs as thin as bamboo sticks, and his clothes were tattered like rags.
"Who are you?"
"who I am?"
He naturally asked, "The sudden appearance of a foreigner in the classroom was already a bit strange, and now it's even more baffling!"
Suddenly, crystal-clear tears welled up in the eyes of the blond, blue-eyed little boy in front of them!
"I'm the student you forced to study even if it killed me!"
When these words reached Gu Chen's ears...
Everything before my eyes,
Shattered instantly!
"...Jim!?"